8th Semester .. What the hell !

They say "Empty mind is Devil's workshop", I say there isn't a better quote to describe 8th sem!

It all started on September 23rd. With GRE knocking on the door, and CAT mugging at full steam, life had reasons to move on, and move on fast. Then P&G happened, and with it came a vacuum of thoughts, activities and above all motivation. The first few months passed enjoying this new state. The idea of having infinite lukkha time, to do whatever you want, was elating. But come 8th sem, with few contact hours and a non-existant BTP, this lukkha time came back to bite me.

The sad part is that its not lack of work or opportunities, to do new and learn new things that is lacking. Its the motivation to do these thats simply missing from the life. First it was TF. I started strong, aiming to participate in not less than 5 events. And ended up participating in none. In the hindsight I can find 1001 reasong of why my particpation in each of the evnts failed, but the long and short of it is that there wasn't enough enthusiasm left.

Then came PAF. I won't call myself a real hostel enthu punter but with Ghaza on my back I would certainly have contributed towards PAf in my capacity. But I couldn't give myself reasons to work for it. The mind kept prompting whats the point of all this. And so PAF also passed with me doing nothing but doodling on the comp or maybe frustraing few people who care.

Then there was particpating in other inter college events. I won't say anything more for you know whts to come.

Now that this long semester has atlast passed, and am counting the last few days in the insti, things look a little upbeat with my BTP stuck up and none of the profiles written! I hope the last moment rush of things will atlast fire the spark thats been missing for so long.

One thing is clear though. Give me anything, but free time.

Its me .... AGAIN!

5 months .... And life is not the same! ...

For one its a new year. The year which I decided would be an year of experimentation, an year of the "firsts", an year of expanding my horizons, an year of learning new skills, an year which I simply won't forget.

And boy! has it been such an year?!! I have seen, felt, experienced so many firsts already in this year, some of which I never even imagined while scripting my new year resolution!

One thing that I learnt time and again was its always easy to throw stones from the other side. It took me 2 liters of water and almost 3 days to say the 3 magic words. And you see it time and again in movies, and wonder why the hell that dumbo of a hero can't say something which both the lead know!! But now that I have a first hand experience and I can CONFIDENTLY say its not easy.

Now that am back on blogging, I hope it continues. Sometimes you have everything except a motivation to go ahead and do things. Many had asked me why I stopped writing and had urged me into writing again. This blog goes for them. I hope I can continue with this new found motivation.

More to come, so hang on!!